I've done nothing but rest and nurse a bad cold all weekend. Actually, I've had a bad cold now for almost 9 days. I think packing up our research library in preparation for my department's move has had a lot to do with my condition. In the packing process I've been exposed to dirt, dust and a bit of mildewy documents that made my cold symptoms worse mid week.

I had over 600 pages to read for work this weekend and I just didn't have it in me to do anything other than read my email a few times. This week is hell week, not only do we move starting Friday morning, our new division head comes to visit us overnight this week. A week when legislation in several large states is moving fast and furious.

My job? To make sure everything/everyone is packed and ready to go Friday morning on top of keeping up with all my responsibilities. In truth, I'd rather be listening to music, writing, reading novels or dancing!

As for the post's title, Sunday for me has always been a tough day to get through. Today is no different, especially since I'm so tired of being sick with this cold. Hope your weekends were enjoyable. b

Posted by: Michele at 08:27 PM | Comments (2) | Add Comment
Post contains 216 words, total size 1 kb.

Writing yesterday's post provided many powerful realizations and a few life lessons.
After following up with my friend's wife this evening I learned that he's finally back on medication and under a doctor's care. I'm both relieved and tired.

My tiredness, however, is a good tired. It comes from being on the phone till the wee hours of this morning from people all over the world who were concerned and called to express their support. They also shared incredible stories of people in their lives who had also sucked the life blood out of them at some point or another.

To those who commented, called, emailed, and left me messages of support, I thank you! It was both unexpected, unbelievably appreciated, and warmed my heart beyond measure. This evening my last caller was a blogger from Canada who has emailed me regularly for the past 2 years whenever I've been feeling a bit low. It was such a welcome surprise and really such a cumulative overwhelming gesture that I just began to cry... but these were tears of great friendship and affection for the kindness received. I truly feel blessed to have each and every one of you in my life. With each call I began to feel better and better. Well, after such an outpourig of support I now I have a new saying:
Bloggers - the sad blues antidote!

A heartfelt thank you and may God bless each and everyone of you.

Posted by: Michele at 11:50 PM | No Comments | Add Comment
Post contains 250 words, total size 1 kb.

Its been a very long time since I've been in this place. I've been here for a few days now, even though for part of that time I've been sick as a dog.

It all started with me coming across some of my friends winter clothes tthat were given to after they died. On one cold night I wore Larry's old FDNY sweatshirt. On another I wore Mike's favorite long sleeve black tshirt. Its comforting to have something of theirs that I can wear. Its like having a big long hug.

I think the rest of the emotional shift began when I wrote my annual holiday letters to my deceased friends, sharing my year's hilights. In writing, I felt as if they were with me and we were having a conversation. It was the closest I felt to them since there death.

That sensation brought me to a place of healing and peace. A place I've not been to in many years. I hope and pray its a place I'll be abe to return to often in the days and months ahead.

.

Posted by: Michele at 12:53 AM | Comments (1) | Add Comment
Post contains 191 words, total size 1 kb.

1 Little steps, eh?

Posted by: _Jon at January 06, 2006 12:52 PM (/R7YK)

Hide Comments | Add Comment